Black Swan

Black Swan

Overbearing memories
Laid vertically across
Onslaught of thoughts
Reserved for the habitual
Magnifying effect on the masses
Putting yourself on the line
Smashed by absurdity
Emotional intimacy undercutting
Characters on the periphery
Modal monsters flirting with destiny
Nothingness permeates the whisper
Bitter regret channeling despair
Inside and all-around
Hawkish sentiments, inverted claim
Wildly disparate views
Happenstance informed by reason
You took my words and twisted
Into something beautiful
Carried away with subversion
Painful duty passionately pursued
Met with exaggerated hope
Experience that left you wanting
Desiring unpredictable change
Something to spark the imagination
Coming to terms with reality
Recognizing the material influence
Empty formality wooed by chance
Noble-hearted inspired by difficulty
Last sacrifice made for love
Careful to preserve that which is hidden
Deliberately enticing to act
A few expressive words
Woven into the fabric
Found by those looking
Felt even by the unwise

Bedraggled

Bedraggled

Barely worth the attention
Not a potent force
Everyone means the rest
Dimensions of expected scorn
Why a subject to take
Slight show with cleavage
To care is like trying
Driven by the dictates
An easier sell with luxury
Held by same principles
Inherent in a how
Will work for beer

Jumping out of my skin

Jumping out of my skin

Standing in the void
Blue with fright
Possessed of the devil
Out over our heads
The whole bloody mess
By sweat and struggle
Getting back into the box
Part of the flux
The Old Stone Age
A head and a hand
Deep in the mud
Inflame the world
A mass of jelly
Sudden darkness
Moving amidst the sleep
In the world of chromos
An indestructible world
A blind urge to defeat
Until the bell rang
In another incarnation
A heartless son of a bitch
Light, peppery, enchanting
Trying to be free of me

Transparently Alive

Transparently Alive

Breathing in the memory
The first tangible substance
Our outer world
Building membrane
Morbid desires
The stars extinguished
Simple and obnoxious
Toward a nebula
Half to Satan
Old and patched
Sleeping with the serpent
Not dreaming
Not coiled to the automatic
Magnetic eyes
They see you
Move about naked
The abnormal span of your wings
Eager to overcome it
Disappear forever
Abandoning
Deserted and betrayed
A black hatred
Flowers thrown into the wind
So full of flame
And the spice of incredible

I spoke the lines

I spoke the lines

Spinning forward
Toward an ultimate end
Raining down perpetual
The twirling frantic
A crawling torment
The mind becomes a fine point
Every pore is spittle and foam
This transformation pounces immediately
The heart and liver
Twinkling eye
The wheel of lust
The cavernous whirl
Lulled to sleep by the century
Quenched with blood
To burry In with teeth
The doom
Nothing outside the wall
Let no one in
Not now, not ever
Gnostic decimals
For another
Somebody else’s velvety deception

seduction

seduction

Sometimes,
I forget the reasons
For the whys
Between blushes of spread
The turning freedom taunts
No longer caught
In this obsession with darkness
Now there is focus to your fire
A certain voltage within
Haunted by demons from within
Picks at flamboyant soothing
The curls of warning
Deeper with heaven’s questions
My sugar
My sweet
Knee deep in bloody valentines
With trepidation
an invisible wish
To see and feel the real
Spending more fear
Not knowing anything
You want to cry
To pull out your hair
You claw at your face
Desiring to be ugly
If only you could match this feeling
This dread
This alien structure
That sucks the blood from your veins
Snaps your bones
Makes you howl
At the moon
The you could shed
This coil
This existence

No trace of blood

No trace of blood

Drifting by the window
Nothing to fear
Bursting and mangled
Eaten by the flames
Surety is in the air
Above and triumphant
Being the last
Emerge and roar
To myself
Destruction
Tidy up the mess
The burden of self
Blind tenacity
Nourished by death
Take the devil
Take his horny hand
The same destiny
Gunned down in the street
No memory
No regret
Only bloody hands
An unthinkable void
Lost in obscurity
All a sack of bones

A star in the corner of your eye

A star in the corner of your eye

Against the fence
The transmigration of souls
And methods of torture
The fine bite of cannibalism
Full of wonder
A frontier of unknown
A life of daily bread
The loaves and the fishes
Bribed and transuded
Eliminate the beauty of the past
Relentless is this swift remorse
I want to outstrip repentance
A curse to the earth
Touch with outstretched arms
Alien and hostile
In a flash
Faster and faster
Much more than mere nakedness
More like peeled
More than alert
My own proper destiny
With wide opened eyes

Whispering to your bridge, but it never listens

Whispering to your bridge, but it never listens

Without sin and evil
Turning the sausage machine
Working like cold cash
Being what it is
It was war
Putting the fear of god into you
Undone and twisted
Moving like an octopus
Tied into the knot
The magneto world
Dropping to the bottom
Blue with a slow drizzle
The empty soul rising
Like naked reality
With big oxygen eyes
The barren mechanical pull
Perfectly meaningless
Into the minus sign
Through the bright glitter
The last moment of time
Crossing over
And making you pay

Demented Poignancy bought at the store

Demented Poignancy bought at the store

A part of life
Like the wandering blind man
Everybody and everything
Al have been added together
Lousy, rancid, and rotten
Like the bad next
Chew for the sake of impossible
No reason to close the door
It’s just me and cat
Both a part of this world
In it and of it
I must run away
Start a new life
Working for body and soul
There is no hope
No solution
Both are ugly and senseless
We all have become absurd
Everything is lost
This is serious business
Waiting for the resurrection

the holes get bigger as you try to fill them

the holes get bigger as you try to fill them

twisted by fate
looking horrendous
living in the now
secure in the turbulence
taking in the drama
longing for the cataclysm
absolutely divested
wanting to stone the light
the deep well of the womb
between the two of us
decomposed of light
heartless as a molecule
washing it off
absolutely sunk
absolute silence
how hard it is to accept
to just barely discern
you had opened up a tomb
removing memories from the past
and I wanted to strangle you

balancing at the edge of humanity

balancing at the edge of humanity

tottering and swaying
the human integer
living on like a rock
no interest in the slaughter
all is destroyed
all is perishable
like heaven and earth
constantly crumbling
belonging to the earth
being without shadow
with a hardened heart
worshiping different gods
beyond the normal limits
a bankruptcy of despair
the smell of love
insatiable as the belly
the wind standing up
crying with lungs of freedom
struggling in a tomb
in a den of vipers
it was all chaos
shreds of the periphery
of null and void

thoughts crawling out of a dark corner

thoughts crawling out of a dark corner

above life and death
flowing on like time
tugging away at me
admitting my delusions
led by its independence
grasping for death
biting like Satan
down into the ooze
through your heavens and hells
slay me with a walking dream
on the other side
the planets’ revolution
detached through sorrow
through outstretched palms
knowing too precisely
haunted by the object
striking me now
the grain of ugliness
vibrations emanating
a monstrous edifice

it is almost invisible in your mind

it is almost invisible in your mind

the effect dizzying
secret’s in my hand
laughing all the way
like twisted gnomes
waiting for it to blow over
hollowing out the base
nibbling at the bait
every bloody thing
belching fire and pestilence
with cloven hoofs
no world of my own
drifting from day to day
vivid before my eyes
after the rain
it pours into my soul
blackest rain
rubbing seldom with the world
they live inside me
never taken the course
submerged lives
raised to the 10th degree
tenaciously lodged with
a strange unfamiliar world

Depicting the landscape as it once was

Depicting the landscape as it once was

Of the disposed
The fears of existence
Her inner thing
Nothing better
Nothing worse
A treat of ordinary brutality
Tremors desired
Champagne atrocities
She gives without asking
On the edge of chaos
Using a dazzling array
So deeply fundamental
Demands that big pills
work better than small
especially when chased down
with half a bottle of vodka
deep connections
between cause and effect
discriminating between art and effect
purposeful frenzies

Going Down to the river with my bucket

Going Down to the river with my bucket

One more silver dollar
Burning a hole in my pocket
Entering through closed fire
Playing with remembrance
Running with my wishes
Out your back door
In the hot morning sun
Bringing me happiness
The wrong and the hundred ways
Not just making
But, taking away
Rolling brown and blessed
Crispy like tumbleweed
Down, down un luck
Looks good going down
Watch it all burn down
Doing me wrong
Wild candy dances
She has wisdom in her eyes
Doing me right
True to another
True to the cut
Shooting dice
And building homes
Before the cow comes
Your up and down melody
we aren’t through
just beginning
just used to the coaster
meeting all the beauties
riding with the Russians

How Much?

How Much?

And then, it surfaces
The darkness
I try to keep it out
It pries it way through
The space under the door
And I see
Like never before
The Formica of your touch
Cold and dull
Mechanical and unfeeling
As if you are going through the motions
Following the orders
Of your master
You are something
Made for nightmares
The time we spend
Means nothing to you
Everything to me
And I know
In the end
There is nothing
There is always a dollar
To be made
Any way you can
Just speak it into existence
The first car
Down your dusty road
That leads you back
To me
Easier to wallow
In the confusion
We both lie
We both hurt
We both walk away
From each other
A those practiced lines
I found written in your notebook
You pretended to be cold
Your distance was a disguise
And now
I know
You will never say
How much you love me

They were not written

They were not written

Upon your mind
No, they were not
It just couldn’t be
No matter how many times
You tried to twist it around
In your mind
It still didn’t fit
Didn’t make sense
And it never will
Just accept that
And get over it
We all have
Well, most of us